Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I do not get angry very much anymore, but there is one thing that will get me going - when someone is being arrogant and won't see it as wrong. I know that I become arrogant when this happens! It reminds me of my father. I accept my father for who he was, but that does not mean I like all of his traits. One of which was arrogance. I have learned to be humble since figuring out deep down I was arrogant too! I have had to grow away from that. Starting a blog seems to me to be arrogant as well, which is why my first one is about humility. When someone else is acting in any way, it is arrogant of me to judge them. Even if I know it is wrong, I cannot really change them. I have to stick with what I do have control over, otherwise I will become more angry when they do not change because of what I do or say. Thinking I have anything to say that will help others is also arrogant. It is only through God that we truly grow. I am nothing before Him in comparison. I like to think of myself as a building. Look how tall I am! But then there is God, who is like the Universe - what am I compared to him. What is the tallest building in the world to the Universe? That knocks me back to reality. I know nothing He does not know. If I want to solve a problem where better to go than God. Knowing God better has helped immensely with dealing with the pain of my childhood. Knowing Dad was not all powerful, but rather as human as me, helps to diminish the power his actions hold over me. My dad is not the writer of my life. That job is up to my God. I will humbly remember that it is all before Him. I pray that He will help me along the way.

hokie62

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