I am taking a hiatus from sharing at a particular recovery site because I need to exercise some humility. I am feeling drained and when that happens I start sharing for no reason. Its not necessarily a bad thing, but I get myself in trouble. I end up not focusing on my needs. I need some time to think about me and my recovery. I am coming up on 15 year anniversary. Its not that I want to stop, but I need to some deep soul searching about what I do want. Recovery can be addictive sometimes. A positive one, but still it can take away from other parts of our lives. I am grateful to be able to be of service to others, but I find that it is not changing the fact that I still prefer to hide sometimes at home. And online, sheesh, I spend a lot of time there because of that old "purpose" feeling. I still don't know what I really want to do with my life. I know its not too late to try something new, but I don't know how to do it. I think writing is best option because I can continue to work, and provide for family. As to what exactly I should write about I am unsure. As I see it I have 2 options - a recovery biography, or something about shame and self-loathing. Perhaps I should just combine them. Try to illustrate how much denial I was in about my low self-worth, where it came from, what it did to me, and how I changed it.

sounds good to me, of course will have to incorporate ic work into it.
will start this Sat at meeting.